Feeling the pressure…

In 10 days I will be doing Ironman Lanzarote. 

I entered this race 12 months ago, having only done 1 Ironman at the time and had 2 booked in for 2014 yet to happen. Sometimes, not always, the thought of doing this race makes me feel sick. I don’t know why, I’ve been in the situation before, I can deal with the race.

Over the weekend whilst supporting Ironman Mallorca 70.3 I had big doubts, very big doubts. The thoughts running through my head were;

• Can I transfer to a 70.3?
• Should I just not do it, at all?
• I’m not sure I can do this again
• Why would anyone want to put themselves through it?

I’m feeling pressure, from everywhere. Except it’s not from everywhere, it’s from in my head, no-one else. I don’t know why I’m feeling like this and I can’t remember if I felt like this last time or whether it’s just I know what pain is about to come.

Im sure it’s a mix of tiredness and pre race nerves but I’m feeling it big time at the moment. I went for a ride in Mallorca, I did the 70.3 route, it seemed to help. Not sure if it’s the heat or hills or wind that helped but it did…a little.

I’m telling myself MTFU all of the time, the surge of adrenalin I get when I think about the race is like no other. 

I’ve gone over the numbers, I’ve done the work, I know what’s required. There’s just something there, making me feel nervous about the race.

Deep down, I know I’ll do it and I know I’ll ‘enjoy’ it as much as you can enjoy an Ironman. I think I just need a break from the long stuff and this will happen. I need to wind down mentally without having the thought in the back of my mind about when it’s going to start again…

Anyway, pre race brain dump blog over with, got some more panicking to do…